Assalamualaikum
Its been awhile people. Last entri was in 2014 right? Can't recall. Hahahaha. Konon sebok nau nau lah tak sempat menulis. Konon. Padahal malas.
Another year.
After so long suddenly tonight I miss the old me. Well, I know kita kena keep moving forward. Mana ada orang kan walk backward iye dak? Tapi I must admit at times I really rindu to be what I used to be. Bold. Temper. Mulut takde insurans. Hehe.
Well sekarang pun masih bold, masih temper dan mulut masih belum cover insurans. Cuma dah slow down sikit. Nanti kang orang cakap sebab tu lah u anak dara tua. (Yes masih anak dara terima kasih) tapi one thing yang sebenarnya I wish didn't happen. I wish I would never bother what people think about me.
Just as much as I denied it, sebenarnya I do care what the hell people think about me.
Kenapa I takde boyfriend. Kenapa I takde ramai kawan. Kenapa I kuat keje. Kenapa I boring. Kenapa I boleh switch personality. Kenapa I cuma ada baju kaler hitam biru merah. Kenapa tak pakai shawl. Kenapa pakai selipar jepun. Kenapa tak dress up. Urghhhh
I really wish I boleh shut this people up. I really wish I would just totally ignore them. Tapi wish jela. Pernah ke hati kita ni ikut apa otak nak? π
So I pujuk hati. So long u tak susah kan orang tak meminta mintak. Then whatever u feel I will bear the cost. U nak sedih pun sedih lah. Nak bosan pun bosan lah. Nak excited pun excited lah. Walaupun deep inside I wish keje u cuma pam darah je. Tak payah nak feeling feeling sangat. Sebab u bukan nak dengar pun kan nasihat I. So be it. But make sure to be strong as well. Because if u crash, I pun crash.
Till then. xoxo.
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